I sat in front of the crackling fire, watching Coco sprawl out on her fuzzy bed, soaking up the heat of the flame. Her purring calmed my unsettled nervous system. Outside, snow began to fall. As I watched the soft flakes fluttering down, they melted away some of my worry. It was a cozy December day, the cat calendar on the wall showing that 2016 was quickly coming to an end. I didn’t know it yet, but that winter marked the death of one version of me and the beginning of anoth

This morning's mediation resulted in tears and broken glass. I found myself  pondering what it truly means to be held, to have a container powerful enough to hold the fire that burns within me. To feel safe to expand.  I sank into meditation lying on the couch with the sound of a burning flame next to me. I chose a recording from Portugal last month. I hadn’t listened to it yet, when I am feeling called I record meditations, I speak what  comes to me in the moment with no pl

Sitting on the floor of the Temezcal, sweat dripping from my pores, I tried to to keep the open wounds on my hands out of the dirt. As Mariana our Temazcalera proudly sang songs passed down to her from her elders, her voice touched me as I listened to the rhythm of her heart, she asked if we knew any songs, in that moment I felt a hinge of sadness, longing, and even a bit of anger. From whom should I have a song to sing? What ancestors, whose elders— for It feels like I have

Early August in Moravia, I found myself sitting on the cleansing bench during the Jurema Ceremony surrounded by naked people crying, screaming and puking in buckets. I explained to a friend that I felt I was living multiple lives because of the amount of things I have going on. He looked at me simply and asked “ can you choose one?” I couldn't answer his question, it truly didn't feel like I had a choice because I want everything. However, I am beginning to understand that

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