Anger, Acne and Aries Season

For most of my life, I felt at war with my skin. No matter what I tried—creams, diets, prescriptions—nothing truly worked. It wasn’t until I stopped trying to fix my skin and started listening to my body that everything began to change. What my body was trying to tell me was that I had unexpressed anger ---April is the time of year to address this suppressed emotion.

As we move into the new year, astrologically speaking, I’ve found myself setting goals, intentions, and planting seeds I thought I should have done back in January—at least when my planner told me to.

I had a moment of guilt for not having done it. But then I remembered: Aries season is the true beginning of the year.

Before the calendar was changed to the Gregorian calendar in 1582 by Pope Gregory XIII—and eventually adopted across the world (as recently as 2016 in Saudi Arabia)—time was marked differently.

It is the calendar that is off, not me.

Time is a construct anyway, and I don’t want to be limited by it. I’m learning to feel what’s natural for me, and to look to nature for guidance.

Now I feel called to action—to create. There’s a spark, a fire. I just got off a call planning a retreat here in the Czech Republic. But in January, I was resting, letting parts of me die—and that feels just as aligned.

As we approach the new moon in Aries, I feel more ready to put myself out there, to share, and to be seen.

This month, according to Traditional Chinese Medicine, liver energy rises—it’s a time of cleansing. I can feel it in my body. I had a three-day headache. Liver stagnation, or imbalance, can lead to inflammation—“heat”—and is associated with anger.

When I was visiting Minnesota last month, I told my cousin that releasing anger from my body cleared my skin.

She was surprised that I even had anger in me.

But I think it’s common—especially for women—not to realize how much anger they’re holding. It’s often suppressed. I didn’t recognize it in myself until a few years ago. But once I started working with it, I noticed the shift physically. My skin improved.

I struggled with acne for most of my life—oily skin, frequent breakouts. Both have improved significantly. I almost never break out now(only fright before my period i may notice a blemish), and I haven’t worn makeup in nearly three years. I no longer feel the need to hide my skin.

I’m certain this change came from releasing emotions in my body, because I tried everything else—and none of it worked. Every cream, every face wash, prescriptions from dermatologists, birth control, antibiotics, tetracycline, retinoids, even isotretinoin (Accutane).

As I write this, I feel a kind of disgust at how much I put into—and onto—my body. I followed doctors blindly because I wanted relief from the pain, discomfort, and embarrassment. I was desperate. I would have tried anything.

Accutane lasted six months. Monthly pregnancy tests, warnings about birth defects, liver inflammation. It worked—until it didn’t. My skin came back worse than before.

I felt like I was at war with my body.

I cut dairy, carbs, tried acupuncture, herbs, supplements like vitamin A and K2. I even tried keto. I juiced celery every day for months. Eventually, I went vegan for four years. Nothing addressed the root—because the root was emotional. It was the anger I wasn’t expressing.

Yes, women have anger too. Probably a lot of it—because it hasn’t been “acceptable” to express it. We’ve been suppressed for fucking generations… okay, maybe I still have some work to do.

I’m sharing this because I know how many people struggle with their skin. And I know people question the work I do—working with emotions, the body, sometimes through nudity and deep vulnerability. It can look strange from the outside.

A lot of this work doesn’t have immediately visible results—but this is one that does.

I’m not a doctor. I don’t have a medical degree. What I have is lived experience in my own body—what has been true for me.

If this can inspire even one person to skip the shame, the discomfort, the harmful treatments—and the cost, not just financially but to their health—then it’s worth sharing.

I’ve been learning from Petr, the healer who helped me see emotions I didn’t even know were there, for the past five years. I’ve faced myself again and again. I’ve learned to accept others, and to work with my own resistance.

It’s a long path—but a rewarding one.

Each day, I feel closer to myself and my truth. I trust life more. Things feel lighter, easier. I’m able to live with a presence I didn’t know was possible.

Some of this is hard to put into words—but I think you can see it. Not just in my skin, but in my face. There’s more peace in me now. I’m able to just be.

It’s simple—and also incredibly complex.

I’ve been practicing with others, learning the intuitive art of healing in a holistic way—beyond words and breath, into the body and soul. Last weekend, we gathered to listen, learn, and practice constellations, regressions, bodywork, and working with sexual energy.

This is the most vulnerable work I’ve ever experienced.

I feel deeply grateful to have found Petr, this work, and this community. I’m beginning to practice with others now, and I’m curious to see how I’ll evolve—how I can support others in healing and transforming their lives.

When I share my journey, people are often surprised by the level of vulnerability—especially around nudity. But I truly believe this is part of the path: accepting ourselves, accepting others, becoming whole.

I know what he teaches is real because he lives it.

Each day, I’m practicing unconditional love. And it’s brought me closer—to myself, and in my relationship.

In a world full of fear, I choose love.

Anna

PS

I would like to share some visuals however its hard because I never was photographed without makeup on because I was embarrassed by my skin, now I am proud to say that don't wear makeup or feel the need to hide. Every photo you see of me today is of my bare skin, even the most recent photoshoot I did was makeup free.

You will also notice a lot less inflammation in my face which I also attribute to emotional release and creating a life with less stress and finding more alignment and rest !

Pictures from 2017-2021- before any work with emotions

Pictures from 2024- present after years of working with emotions, through bodywork and work with the plant medicine Jurema which is drank in ceremony similar to the more popular Ayahuasca.

If you've struggled or are still struggling with your skin I would love to hear from you, I know how challenging it can be and how much it impacts daily life.

Send you some love on your journey !